It Was Not In Vain
Last Wednesday I woke up and did the first thing that I always do in the mornings, I checked my email. When I opened my inbox I saw an email from our ICC team leader. He was writing to inform me and a few others that one of the baby girls I helped take care of in China had passed away very unexpectedly. It's one of those things where you have to read it over and over again to try and comprehend and even after you read it so many times that you've nearly memorized it you still can't begin to fathom. I sat there and cried for this sweet baby girl who had lived such a short life, I cried for the nannies who had loved her like their own child, I cried for the other children in her room who would wonder what had happened to this little girl who was like a sister to them. All day I kept thinking "If we only had some answers." I spent two weeks with this precious girl. Out of all of the children in our room she was one of the healthiest. That made it even harder to swallow...
Despite all of this pain and grieving I am so thankful that there is a God who created all of us, who created this baby girl, who created heaven and who knew before time began that she would only spend a short time on this earth and I'm so thankful that He would allow me to be a part of that time. It doesn't make sense. So many things in this life don't. I still ache when I think about it, but what a beautiful two weeks I got to spend loving on her. This is why we went to China. This is why this work is so important.
The concept of going to another country to love children seems so foreign to people. Some have even said that it seems a bit wasteful, but let me tell you this, I wouldn't trade a moment of the time I spent in China with those children. This has motivated me more than ever. I will continue to go back to China and love all people with this sweet child in mind. Knowing that it could all end so suddenly. Our time here is fleeting. What better way to spend it than by loving and caring and showing the way to Jesus through our actions. We have a choice to make a difference. They will know us by our love. Every day is a gift. Every day has a purpose. Every moment I spent holding that little baby girl, every song I sang to her and the many kisses I showered on her little cheeks meant something. Every person who went on that trip made a difference in a child's life no matter how long or short it may be. It was not in vain.
"He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." ~Revelation 21:4
Please keep the nannies and ICC staff in your prayers during this extremely hard time....
Despite all of this pain and grieving I am so thankful that there is a God who created all of us, who created this baby girl, who created heaven and who knew before time began that she would only spend a short time on this earth and I'm so thankful that He would allow me to be a part of that time. It doesn't make sense. So many things in this life don't. I still ache when I think about it, but what a beautiful two weeks I got to spend loving on her. This is why we went to China. This is why this work is so important.
The concept of going to another country to love children seems so foreign to people. Some have even said that it seems a bit wasteful, but let me tell you this, I wouldn't trade a moment of the time I spent in China with those children. This has motivated me more than ever. I will continue to go back to China and love all people with this sweet child in mind. Knowing that it could all end so suddenly. Our time here is fleeting. What better way to spend it than by loving and caring and showing the way to Jesus through our actions. We have a choice to make a difference. They will know us by our love. Every day is a gift. Every day has a purpose. Every moment I spent holding that little baby girl, every song I sang to her and the many kisses I showered on her little cheeks meant something. Every person who went on that trip made a difference in a child's life no matter how long or short it may be. It was not in vain.
"He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." ~Revelation 21:4
Please keep the nannies and ICC staff in your prayers during this extremely hard time....
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